*sigh

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out

You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away, away with you....

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

should i feel like a broken hearted girl ??

gue baik , sangat baik.. masih menjalani semua aktivitas padat gue dan pecicilan dimana-mana..

meski ada yang hilang..

itu wajar , seenggaknyaa kita memang pernah belajar membuat sebuah hubungan menjadi sukses !!

meski nyatanyaa enggak..

gue menjalani dua bulan sama lo ,

penuh debat ,

emosi ,

amarah ,

cinta yang terselubung ,

kasih sayang yang bahkan hanya sempat di rasakan tanpa realisasi..

kita saling marah akan ego kita yang besar..

saling diam dan itu ngebuat gue kadang nangis sendirian..

tapi gue belajar ikhlas , bahwa mungkin ini yang terbaik..

mungkin bahagia lo bukan sama gue..

dan mungkin lo memang bukan buat gue,,

gue ikhlasin semua janji lo ke gue..

gue pahami semua sikap egois lo ke gue..

semua yang pernah lo ucapin ke gue..

gue akan anggep itu cuma angin lalu...

seakan ga pernah terjadi apapun , seakan ga ada kita berdua..

seperti sikap lo selama ini :)

memang ga perlu merasa kehilangan lo karena gue pun ga pernah milikin lo sejak dua bulan itu ,......

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welcome april :)

ini pagi pertama gue menjomblo , hahahaa..
diawali dengan mencuci segunung baju yang mulai membusuk dikamar gue dan memuseumkan converse tercinta gue..


sebenrnyaa gue cuma rada tertohok ajaa pas mencari-cari pasangan kaos kaki pink gue (tumben bukan oren) , dan alhasil gak ketemu dimana pun..
meski mami gue ikut ngebantu nyariin , itu kaos kaki pink akhirnya pun ikutan separated kaya gue..
dan itu ngebuat gue berfikir "ohh nasib gue kayak ini kaos kaki yaaa ?? sendirian ?? useless dong :("
dan sekali lagi ada yang sakit namun entah dimana didalem hati gue hingga hujan pun datang lagi ngebasahin cucian gue yang udah basah...

senior-senior gue yg berbaik hati serta sodara-sodara gue diukm pun berbaik hati menyemangati gue dengan bilang "MATI SATU TUMBUH SERIBU"...
 but how is it works ??? gue patah hati !!! bukannya abis ngebasmi parasit !!
arghhhhhh.............
gue butuh sekotak VICODIN !!!!!!! dan berharap sakit yang gue rasain hilang...