when you said like that.........my world falling to pieces !!

siang terik tadi sepulang gue les , gue mendapati rumah gue senyap.. mami ga ada sama papap.. sedang kompak rupanya ngurus kerjaan dus :)

gue pun langsung sibuk membenamkan diri dalam PC purbakala gue (baca:jadul) sampe gue pun menemukan salah satu BUKTI nyata , kalo my dearest ex jerk itu sudah move on..

bagus sih , tapi entah kenapa lagi masih ada yang sakit di hati gue dan gue gatau di bagian mananya :(

cuma terasa sesak dan gue pun sangsi gue masih bs napas :((

aahh.. taulahh..

dia bilang dia udah bisa ikhlasin gue , good for you B :) im glad to know that.. find someone else better than me..

jam 7pm : diaaa nge chat gue dgn ringan dan selow "hey G"...

lelaki emg gaa punya hatii !!! :((

tertohok *but i'm in girl version :D

The Script – The Man Who Can’t Be Moved

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,

Gonna camp in my sleeping bag. I’m not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don’t understand,
I’m not… broke I’m just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I’ve been in love with you…

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you’re missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you’d come back here to the place that we’d meet,
And you’d see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I’m not moving…
I’m not moving.

Policeman says son you can’t stay here,
I said there’s someone I’m waiting for if it’s a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you’re missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you’d come back here to the place that we’d meet,
And you’d see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I’m not moving…
I’m not moving.

I’m not moving…
I’m not moving.

People talk about the guy
Whos waiting on a girl…
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world…
Hmmmm

Maybe I’ll get famous as man who can’t be moved,
And maybe you won’t mean to but you’ll see me on the news,
And you’ll come running to the corner…
Cos you’ll know it’s just for you

I’m the man who can’t be moved
I’m the man who can’t be moved…

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you’re missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you’d come back here to the place that we’d meet,
And you’d see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I’m not moving…
I’m not moving.

I’m not moving…
I’m not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I’m not gonna move.

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siang terik membuat galau !!
entah gimana gue putus sama doi tapi PATAH HATINYA sama yang lain ! wakakkakakk...

really miss his lips touch mine and how's sweet that when i close my eyes :)

tapi willa bilang itu orang hanyalah sederatan dari cowo2 brengsek yang ga perlu di jelasin apa alasannya.. yeahhh , ga mantan gak gebetan baru !! jerk ! but i'm so curious , fuffufuuuu...
siang ini gue online dan melihat dia sedang online juga ! pengen nyapa tapi malu , penegn diem aja tapi kangen !! pas buka FB nya gue baru engeh ! dia sudah ada pacar !! what a stupid girl ! gue aturan move on sama yang much better than B , and i think L can be that ! but in the fact , after he kiss me he just left me.. and just say : "our kissing is a mistake".....
i'm absolutely shocked but i'm not cry , just keep in my faith someday he'll be miss me and try to find me :)

should i feel like a broken hearted girl ??

sampai jatuh sakit..

kaya orang linglung..

well , gue yakin bukan penyakitnya yg bikin gue gini :)

cuma karena hati gue aja yg agak sakit , hati gue masih ga percaya , buat pertamakalinya gue dicampakan !! damn , what a structure :))

dan ternyata lo udah move on , sangat cepat seakan ga ada apa2 sama kita !! yeaah emg iya sih.. harusnya gue ga perlu ngerasa kehilangan lo , karena selama dua bulan ini juga gue di acuhin mulu sm lo :((

bahkan banyak orang yg ngomong : dek kok pulangnya lebih sering sama abang kamu ketimbang sama pacar kamu ??

.. dan gue cuma bisa nyengir

mungkin lo cm numpang tenar macarin gue , hahaha bukan berarti gue ngerasa eksis yaa.. tapi kan hebat tuh bisa macarin cewe trus ditinggalin gitu ajaa !! sumpah otak lo tuh ditaro dmn ?!! di dengkul lo apa di rambut lo yang gondrong gajelas !!

*sigh

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out

You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away, away with you....

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

should i feel like a broken hearted girl ??

gue baik , sangat baik.. masih menjalani semua aktivitas padat gue dan pecicilan dimana-mana..

meski ada yang hilang..

itu wajar , seenggaknyaa kita memang pernah belajar membuat sebuah hubungan menjadi sukses !!

meski nyatanyaa enggak..

gue menjalani dua bulan sama lo ,

penuh debat ,

emosi ,

amarah ,

cinta yang terselubung ,

kasih sayang yang bahkan hanya sempat di rasakan tanpa realisasi..

kita saling marah akan ego kita yang besar..

saling diam dan itu ngebuat gue kadang nangis sendirian..

tapi gue belajar ikhlas , bahwa mungkin ini yang terbaik..

mungkin bahagia lo bukan sama gue..

dan mungkin lo memang bukan buat gue,,

gue ikhlasin semua janji lo ke gue..

gue pahami semua sikap egois lo ke gue..

semua yang pernah lo ucapin ke gue..

gue akan anggep itu cuma angin lalu...

seakan ga pernah terjadi apapun , seakan ga ada kita berdua..

seperti sikap lo selama ini :)

memang ga perlu merasa kehilangan lo karena gue pun ga pernah milikin lo sejak dua bulan itu ,......

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welcome april :)

ini pagi pertama gue menjomblo , hahahaa..
diawali dengan mencuci segunung baju yang mulai membusuk dikamar gue dan memuseumkan converse tercinta gue..


sebenrnyaa gue cuma rada tertohok ajaa pas mencari-cari pasangan kaos kaki pink gue (tumben bukan oren) , dan alhasil gak ketemu dimana pun..
meski mami gue ikut ngebantu nyariin , itu kaos kaki pink akhirnya pun ikutan separated kaya gue..
dan itu ngebuat gue berfikir "ohh nasib gue kayak ini kaos kaki yaaa ?? sendirian ?? useless dong :("
dan sekali lagi ada yang sakit namun entah dimana didalem hati gue hingga hujan pun datang lagi ngebasahin cucian gue yang udah basah...

senior-senior gue yg berbaik hati serta sodara-sodara gue diukm pun berbaik hati menyemangati gue dengan bilang "MATI SATU TUMBUH SERIBU"...
 but how is it works ??? gue patah hati !!! bukannya abis ngebasmi parasit !!
arghhhhhh.............
gue butuh sekotak VICODIN !!!!!!! dan berharap sakit yang gue rasain hilang...